Finality

Today had such a huge air of finality.

I had my last proper class as an RDC TENT student (if you can call any of my classes proper classes :P), and I just...I am full of this deep sadness. This program was the first time I ever felt at home, or like I belonged somewhere. My best friends are in this program. I consider many of my instructors to be friends, and not just instructors. It's so weird to think that in less than a week, I will no longer have anything to do, so far as Red Deer College is concerned. I won't have any more shows to work, I won't have any assignments due or calls to go to. It feels like this journey has been so much longer than two years, and I don't want it to be over. I have learned so much more than the curriculum from my instructors - they have taught me how to be a functioning member of society, how to communicate with people around me, how to, in short, succeed. I owe so much to them and I really don't know how to thank them for it.

I mean...seriously. I knew nothing about theatre going in. I didn't know what a fly rail was, or a Source4, or a drift, or hell, even blacks. I wouldn't be able to tell you what "drafting" meant, or how big the rise of a standard stair is. If you had asked me to build something in 1/4" scale I would have looked at you like you were crazy. I have come so far in the last two years. And it's just so bittersweet. In a matter of weeks my classmates are going to be spread across the globe - one of my best friends is moving to Edinburgh, for crying out loud! And I just don't want to think about it, but at the same time, it's all I can think about tonight.

It's so weird to think that I won't be going back to the Arts Centre come September. I will be at some other school, possibly in another province. I can't even imagine it right now.