I have had a really difficult time balancing my IRL and online lives lately. It seems like I can either focus on my IRL life - school, friends, boyfriend, etc. - or my online life - HPA, friends, etc - and it sucks. I want them both to be part of my life, equal parts. I'm just finding it so difficult to do! I seem to still be in "Twelfth Night" mode, where I basically ignore everything internet related. I don't want to, it just isn't on my radar anymore, and I hate it. I hate that I no longer have the urge to check my HPA email twenty times a day, or that watching YouTube videos no longer has the thrill it did. I hate that Tumbling, Tweeting and blogging are at the back of my mind. I want all of that back. But I like where I'm heading in my IRL life, so I don't want to cut anything back.
Most of all, I think it's my friends that I miss the most. Room 1725, and the HPA staff. I miss them like crazy. It's so hard to keep in touch when my priorities are school, and not checking the internet/twitter/email/whatever regularly. But they're so important to me. Some of my best friends are from Nerdfighteria.
I think what I'm trying to say here, is that I need more balance. Balance between the internet and the real world, balance between mental, spiritual and my physical needs, all of that. I've been feeling really out of whack in general lately, so I think that would help. I'm just not sure how or what I need to do.
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