So I here I was, thinking that today was going to be chill and full of cleaning and Pokemon Yellow and maybe some writing and/or reading. Boy was I wrong!
Okay, maybe not TOTALLY wrong. I did do some cleaning (not enough) and I did do some Pokemon Yellow playing. But I didn't get any writing and/or reading done. Instead, I went to the beach with some friends - some of whom I haven't seen since April. Not even joking on that one. It was...ok. Not as fun as I had hoped. I kind of think I'm drifting away from them or something. I dunno. I just felt out of the loop or something. And like I was preoccupied with something, but I wasn't. I just kept staring out at the water, not even paying attention to anything. Weird or what? Maybe it has to do with the fact that all I wanted to do was sleep. XD (I almost did that, btw. We were all laying on a blanket and I nearly fell asleep. Hence sunburned shoulder.)
But it was relaxing. (And I may have cheated on Jenny Craig. Whoops. Big Moo ice cream is my bane.) And then I came home for a managers meeting with the HPA which was spiffy, and then to my brothers to hang out for some family time, which was funtimes.
So now it's nearly ten thirty and I am only just writing my blog. I need to stop making a habit out of this. It does not make for a good blog. I haven't written anything decent since the fan fiction post earlier this week. Eep. Hopefully that'll change tomorrow.
But in the mean time, I am going to ramble a bit more. Mostly about why friendships just kind of fall apart. I have this group of friends that I met at YouthWrite aka WordsWorth, which was a writing camp I attended for three years. It was amazing and one of the best things that ever happened to me. And at this camp I met some amazing people (all of whom I am now married to - we even had a ceremony) and got really close with a group of people that we - and everyone at the camp - started to dub as The Crew. They were like my second family. And one of them is my best friend. But the other ones...I dunno I just feel like I'm drifting away from them. I don't understand why, other than the fact that I'm so far away. But that didn't used to matter. We used to just pick up where we left off, but I haven't been feeling that lately. v.v I suppose it was bound to happen one day because we're all going to lead different lives - but at the same time, we're all going to be artists, so we're going to be in somewhat the same community. Kati's going to be a musician of some sort, Elise an actor, me a writer/film maker, Chris an editor, Colleen a make-up artist. And Teresa and Liam...well I'm not really sure what Liam wants to do, but Teresa wants to do something with the environment, so I suppose that's different. And then there's Conar and Emily and Cassie too, but again, not really sure what they want to do with their lives. Which is terrible. *makes note to ask them* But I think we're all going to be somehow connected to the artistic community in Alberta. Whether it just be because of people we know or because of our roots or whatever, I think we will. And I just...it's so sad that I feel this huge wall between us. It seems like this is happening with all of my friendships lately, and I think it's me. I don't get what's going on. Maybe it's just because I'm so wiped out that I don't have the energy to put into it. I dunno. But my IRL friendships seem to be disintegrating while my online ones flourish. Why can't I have both?
Days until LeakyCon: 331
Listening to: Lovegood - Ministry of Magic
Reading: Bram Stoker's Dracula
Thankful for: Hot summer days and beaches
Writing: Ginny Weasley/Draco Malfoy fanfiction
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